Pessimism is pointless to me. It doesn’t mean a thing to me. It is universally within reach. Pessimism is the ruling ideology in a court of enfeebling emotions. I have no patience for it personally and I don’t care to console myself in it. Pessimistic feelings are not a marker of a man’s breadth. To me philosophical pessimism is a misunderstanding of the spirit of man and his depth. Many cynical pessimists find solace in the world by their clever difference making, like a man huddled by a fire, burning his clothes in a blizzard, outside a warm village, just to remark in his lonesome that he is unique for being alien. And then in his clever, naked loneliness, he finds himself hateful of the world around him, because the world punishes by virtue of its natural properties.
Again, I say that pessimism is useless to me. I’ve come into contact with people, who are spiritually pessimistic, who sacrifice days of happiness at the alter of truth, and despair with their being born, their breathing, and their dying. And at the beginnings and ends of lives, the world becomes no more false, and no more true. I say that the world is no more real than it is now! The world with our deaths, becomes no more false than it is at this very moment. I find my life to be a series of momentous occasions. I want to say yes to everything, and become, the once lived, twice loved, slave of my own fate. I found that at a hilarious corridor, in a conversation with an atheist, I discovered that I’ve given myself over to the ecstatic faith of my own life. It made zero difference to me whether or not God was real or false, because faith is enough to enrich me. It makes no difference to me because I am not seeking my next steps in the unfound path of truth. For me there is no better triumph, then to come to death’s threshold in my final season in life, and find myself at the ends of a forged path.
I heard Nietzsche asked, “Is man merely a mistake of God's? Or God merely a mistake of man?”
And Morrissey responded, “What difference does it make?”
Pessimism
pessimism is what drives me to write.